Sorry I’ve been so MIA lately, I’m at university and just finished finals!! YAY! This semester I took eighteen credits while also working and applying for and beginning an internship so life has been crazy, to say the least.
Spring has always been my favorite season for many reasons, but I especially love it for all it’s taught me about life and progress. It’s so exciting to see all the blossoms and leaves on the trees, as well as the daffodils and hyacinths, popping up everywhere, giving a teaser of the vibrance and lushness that is summer. This, mixed with school being out for the summer, makes me long for those hot summer days followed by warm summer nights but instead when I wake up, I am often greeted with fifty-degree weather and lots of rain (which I’m thankful for! Utah needs all the moisture it can get).
It reminds me of similar moments I have experienced (and am currently experiencing) of feeling like I’m done with a certain struggle or phase of life, I can’t take anymore, and am ready to move onto the next. I feel tired of the gloom and cold that is winter here in Utah and am ready for the warmth and long days full of sunshine. Similarly, there have been hard, dark, and gloomy times in my life where I’m just READY for the sun to come back out and warm my face and breathe life back into me. And then just when I don’t think I can take one more dreary day– I start to see buds on the trees and bushes. And pretty soon blossoms start to form and almost overnight the drab, lifeless earth that has been, is no more and is instead replaced by beautiful pink and white flowers all around. The grass starts to get green and even on windy, rainy days I am greeted by a shower of pink and white confetti/ petals that fall to reveal vibrant green leaves almost celebrating the new growth and the ringing in of a new season.
I’ve experienced this kind of rebirth many times in my life where I will struggle with something and maybe not understand why or what the real problem actually is until one day it becomes so clear to me what the cause of my struggle is and the ways I need to further develop as a person– and it truly is a celebration!! A celebration of new growth and the start of a new era of self-awareness and progress. One worthy of as many flower petals/ confetti as possible! And just because I can see the new growth coming doesn’t mean there aren’t hard days or gloomy days, but it does mean that they are fewer and are made less dreary by the promise of what is to come.
I think that the earth and all of God’s creations have so much to teach us about ourselves and our lives and the ways in which we learn and progress, and I hope that if you are in your own dark, cold winter that you can take heart in knowing that spring ALWAYS comes again. Sometimes it takes it a little longer or we have surprise snowfalls in June, but the sun always comes again. It has for me and I know it will for you!
Know that you are loved and never alone and that I’m always here if you want to talk through your own winter or just need a listening ear or advice on how to care for your fiddle leaf (bc I now consider myself an expert as I haven’t killed mine in the year I’ve had it and there’s even new growth coming!!!!)
Brighter, longer, warmer days are coming!
Xoxo
Madeline
